I hate this vulnerability. I hate this feeling.
I’m a mess. But one day, I’m gonna be okay.
Today, I really just wanted to kiss you. In front of everyone, I didn’t care. I can’t wait til you go to school here.
We may have only gotten about 6 hours of sleep, but talking til 4:30am really helped. Made me appreciate you, and us, that much more.
I am awkward. I can be pretty selfish at times. I lack confidence in a lot of areas. I am squeamish. I can’t even put my fingers together without feeling uncomfortable. I get mad at people when they’re upset with me, which doesn’t make sense at all. I always feel like I’m not good enough. I can go a day with barely eating and a day where I can’t stop. I get jealous really easily and wish I could be more like others. I have a lot of friends but at the same time I feel really lonely every once in awhile. I don’t study hard enough. I’m not busy as I think I am so I could get a lot more done if I just did the things I needed to. I’m not healthy because I don’t take vitamins or work out a lot anymore. I talk about myself way too much. I tend to feel like people are ganging up on me when it’s not true at all.
^Did I mention I talk too much about myself?
Apparently today is “No, you’re wrong and I’m going to sit here and argue with you and tell you why you’re wrong” day.
I wish I didn’t feel like I am always competing against someone. I just wanna be okay with myself and my accomplishments. Ugh, it’s a Monday.
It’s official.
I am the most awkward person ever when it to socializing with people my age. I am better with children and older adults. Ugh, how ridiculous.
Seriously?
My life.
I’ve been watching the most superficial show ever, and then the very last scene made my heart melt. Cue day made.
