from the inside out

I hate this vulnerability. I hate this feeling.

Tue, 07 May 2013 11:32:10 -0400

I hate this vulnerability. I hate this feeling.

I’m a mess. But one day, I’m gonna be okay.

Mon, 29 Apr 2013 13:34:17 -0400

I’m a mess. But one day, I’m gonna be okay.

Today, I really just wanted to kiss you. In front of everyone, I didn’t care. I can’t...

Sun, 24 Mar 2013 00:01:20 -0400

Today, I really just wanted to kiss you. In front of everyone, I didn’t care. I can’t wait til you go to school here.

We may have only gotten about 6 hours of sleep, but talking til 4:30am really helped. Made me...

Mon, 18 Feb 2013 15:25:35 -0500

We may have only gotten about 6 hours of sleep, but talking til 4:30am really helped. Made me appreciate you, and us, that much more.

I am awkward. I can be pretty selfish at times. I lack confidence in a lot of areas. I am squeamish....

Wed, 13 Feb 2013 15:36:59 -0500

I am awkward. I can be pretty selfish at times. I lack confidence in a lot of areas. I am squeamish. I can’t even put my fingers together without feeling uncomfortable. I get mad at people when they’re upset with me, which doesn’t make sense at all. I always feel like I’m not good enough. I can go a day with barely eating and a day where I can’t stop. I get jealous really easily and wish I could be more like others. I have a lot of friends but at the same time I feel really lonely every once in awhile. I don’t study hard enough. I’m not busy as I think I am so I could get a lot more done if I just did the things I needed to. I’m not healthy because I don’t take vitamins or work out a lot anymore. I talk about myself way too much. I tend to feel like people are ganging up on me when it’s not true at all.

^Did I mention I talk too much about myself?

Apparently today is “No, you’re wrong and I’m going to sit here and argue with you...

Wed, 06 Feb 2013 20:18:16 -0500

Apparently today is “No, you’re wrong and I’m going to sit here and argue with you and tell you why you’re wrong” day.

I wish I didn’t feel like I am always competing against someone. I just wanna be okay with...

Mon, 04 Feb 2013 21:06:40 -0500

I wish I didn’t feel like I am always competing against someone. I just wanna be okay with myself and my accomplishments. Ugh, it’s a Monday.

It's official.

Thu, 24 Jan 2013 20:48:27 -0500

I am the most awkward person ever when it to socializing with people my age. I am better with children and older adults. Ugh, how ridiculous.

Seriously?

Sun, 20 Jan 2013 23:07:26 -0500

My life.

I’ve been watching the most superficial show ever, and then the very last scene made my heart...

Fri, 04 Jan 2013 16:06:44 -0500

I’ve been watching the most superficial show ever, and then the very last scene made my heart melt. Cue day made.

That amazing moment when I looked into your eyes and they matched my hoodie that you were wearing...

Thu, 27 Dec 2012 21:49:22 -0500

That amazing moment when I looked into your eyes and they matched my hoodie that you were wearing last night.

It’s been three years that I’ve had this lip problem. It’s time for it to go...

Tue, 25 Dec 2012 11:43:07 -0500

It’s been three years that I’ve had this lip problem. It’s time for it to go away… seriously.

On another note, this is going to be the most dysfunctional Christmas ever.

I love my family, but damn… I need to get the hell out of here..

Sun, 23 Dec 2012 18:58:59 -0500

I love my family, but damn… I need to get the hell out of here..

The stupid shit you post on facebook is ridiculous. No wonder I couldn’t stand you.

Thu, 20 Dec 2012 19:41:02 -0500

The stupid shit you post on facebook is ridiculous. No wonder I couldn’t stand you.

I know we are apartment shopping for just you, but I honestly can’t wait for when it’s...

Tue, 18 Dec 2012 16:04:10 -0500

I know we are apartment shopping for just you, but I honestly can’t wait for when it’s for both of us.

All I want is to lay in bed, cuddling, you playing with my hair while I tickle your arms or legs or...

Mon, 17 Dec 2012 22:45:23 -0500

All I want is to lay in bed, cuddling, you playing with my hair while I tickle your arms or legs or face.

You are so ridiculous. You put me in the worst of moods. You are so hypocritical and get so pissy...

Mon, 17 Dec 2012 18:46:03 -0500

You are so ridiculous. You put me in the worst of moods. You are so hypocritical and get so pissy over everything. Maybe I’m tired of picking every movie and everything we do and eat and watch. But if I don’t want to choose, you get upset. Then when I choose, you get upset cuz it’s not what you want. Your husband just got home and you’re already getting upset with him and making him feel like shit. Just stop. This is why I was so hesitant in coming for so long… I’m ready to go home.

“Just look over your shoulder, I’ll be there, always.”

Wed, 12 Dec 2012 10:27:15 -0500

“Just look over your shoulder,

I’ll be there, always.”

I hope to never see you.

Wed, 12 Dec 2012 01:05:41 -0500

Ever again. I felt like my heart was going to come out of my chest I was so scared. You crossed lines, and I will never forget that. You act like nothing has ever happened, but I will always remember. And that’s the saddest part about it. You do the harm, and I am the one left to deal with it.

Pandora, you are doing an amazingly good job at playing all the right songs at the wrong time.. If I...

Sun, 09 Dec 2012 13:55:00 -0500

Pandora, you are doing an amazingly good job at playing all the right songs at the wrong time..

If I listen to “You’ll Be in My Heart” one more time, I don’t know if I’ll be able to handle it..